doubts, uncertainty, and You

why God?
why me?
why is it so hard?

I guess I shouldn't have sung "Hello hurricane, you're not enough, hello hurricane, you can't silence my love, I've got doors and windows boarded up, all your dead end fury is not enough, you can't silence my love "... 'cause the hurricanes just keep coming!

I love you SO much, and I just want more of you in my life.
Thank you for putting this desire of getting close to you in my heart.
It's more alive than ever now.

I don't know why
I really don't
but I trust you
that there's a reason
an important reason
there's a reason why life isn't easy
and why I don't have it all figured out
You want to teach me something
You want me to be stronger
You want me to overcome

But without you I can't
I simply can't.
It comforts me to know you're there
you are my strength, you are my hope
I have your love, and that's all I need.

Please God, just help me feel that way
show me what to do, give me peace

take away all this worry
all this doubt
all this uncertainty
from my heart
because I know you love me
I know your will is to give me
abundant life
I know you want me to be happy
and enjoy life
loving you, and being loved by you

thank you God.
(I feel better after writing this. thank you.)