Us against the world

why does the world hate you so much, God?

actually, you don't need to answer this. I know why. it's the way it's supposed to be.

but... it makes me so sad!!! and angry!!!

it breaks my heart, really.

even worse is seeing people who used to call you their Lord, now saying you don't make sense.

I just pray you never let me go.

and I pray for those people, I pray they find you one day.

we are so stupid!!!

we run away from you, even if we need you more than anything.

I'm tired. and sometimes I just wish I could go home with you already.

but I know I'm here for a purpose, I know you want to do things through me.

and I'm here. available for you to use me however you want , God.

I love you so much. just the thought of you brings me to tears. just thinking of your tremendous sacrifice. you did EVERYTHING for me, and I don't need to do ANYTHING. just ACCEPT your gift. and I accept it, Jesus. I thank you so much. because no matter what they say, I know you're here, with me. In me.

I love you and I honestly don't want anything else, I just want you. If you wanna give me something else, let it be an extra. My contentment is in you, not in anything or anyone I might lose. AMEN.

doubts, uncertainty, and You

why God?
why me?
why is it so hard?

I guess I shouldn't have sung "Hello hurricane, you're not enough, hello hurricane, you can't silence my love, I've got doors and windows boarded up, all your dead end fury is not enough, you can't silence my love "... 'cause the hurricanes just keep coming!

I love you SO much, and I just want more of you in my life.
Thank you for putting this desire of getting close to you in my heart.
It's more alive than ever now.

I don't know why
I really don't
but I trust you
that there's a reason
an important reason
there's a reason why life isn't easy
and why I don't have it all figured out
You want to teach me something
You want me to be stronger
You want me to overcome

But without you I can't
I simply can't.
It comforts me to know you're there
you are my strength, you are my hope
I have your love, and that's all I need.

Please God, just help me feel that way
show me what to do, give me peace

take away all this worry
all this doubt
all this uncertainty
from my heart
because I know you love me
I know your will is to give me
abundant life
I know you want me to be happy
and enjoy life
loving you, and being loved by you

thank you God.
(I feel better after writing this. thank you.)