friends not being the friends they should be

hurts me more than any stupid boy

not realizing what he's missing

they say friends are there for you

when no one else is

but what if not even your friends are there?

i've never been good at relationships

it's always been hard to trust others

and if i do trust you

please don't make me lose the trust

it's not the things I wanna know

it's the way you approach the issues

it's your lack of empathy towards me

don't wanna know a thing

just want someone who will treat me with love

and not say things they know will hurt me

oh how fool we are sometimes

we think that showing too much feeling

is a sign of weakness

we try to protect our thoughts

from the person who wants to

know them the most

we expect others to do things

yet we stay static in our position

we want to appear unattached

"if you leave tomorrow i won't care"

that's the message we transmit

but how far is that from what we truly feel

how different are our actions from our real thoughts

always pretending like we need nobody

always trying to look self-sufficient

never telling others what they mean to us

never letting them see what's on our hearts

if we only learned to really show ourselves

the way we truly are

we wouldn't lose many important people

in our crazy lives

are we ever gonna learn?

please tell me we will.

if some things are meant to happen

we shouldn't prevent them from happening

if some beautiful things want to happen to us

why do we do everything we can

to just make it more difficult?

it's ok to be scared

it's ok to be afraid

but that shouldn't stop us

from being ourselves.

by: me.