I want...

a family of my own. I know I'm too young (or not) to think about this, but I can't avoid it, since I'm surrounded by everything (almost) that I want for my own future. I've been an aupair for 4 months now, almost 5. and living with a family that has young children makes me... imagine myself in a few years...
married, in love, happy, not pregnant right away of course (lol) but... just happy for living the life I'll hopefully get to live. I see Jake and Lola, and they are so cute, I seriously want to adopt them. haha. Right now I don't think about it so much, but I know it'll be really hard to say good-bye and to leave them :(
it will also be EXTREMELY hard to say good-bye to my beautiful nephews, Seba and Lucas... I don't wanna be far from them :(

I'll also miss Ava, although she wasn't so nice to me in the beginning... now she's already used to me I think, cuz she talks to me and hugs me and tells me things and asks me to help her and stuff... :)

Anyway, I just wanted to talk about how it feels to live here, and everything... they're all very nice to me, although, of course, not everything is perfect.
but they treat me well, my room is beautiful, so is my bathroom (it's the biggest one in the house!), I have a TV and DVD in my room, and I bought my laptop some months ago, so they gave me a desk for it... :) before I got my laptop I used one of their laptops, they never said anything about me staying there for too long or anything... although many times I did. hehe.

now I got mine in my room and it's really hard to stay away from it, I REALLY don't wanna spend too much time on it, because I also wanna do other things, such as read, write my plans n stuff, watch TV, sleep early... but it's so hard! oh well :/

Alice (the babies' great-grandmother, Ken's grandmother) just left... she's so nice! she comes here every Tuesday to help Sejal with her laundry, since Sejal almost doesn't have time to do it... and Alice is 86 years old!!! that's what I call a young-hearted person. hehe :)

her parents were from Portugal, but she was born in Massachussetts. so, she speaks a liittle Portuguese. honestly, I know more than her. haha. but that's because she was raised here and never went to school in Portugal or anything. anyway... every time she comes, she helps me feed the babies and talks to me A LOT. she tells me about her youth, her ex boyfriends, how she met her husband, etc, etc, etc... it's really interesting to hear stories that happened so long ago... I wish I could go back in time to see some of those moments =P

well, what do I love about this family?
1. their babies: they are the most adorable babies I've ever met! and even though I've been with them for only 4 months, I feel as if I've been with them forever! (well, they were 8 months when I came here... ) but I feel as if they're really MY own babies and as if I have to raise them and educate them and everything! of course I'm not their mother and I won't do any of that stuff, but I feel as if I will, because I'm with them all day long...
People say they think I'm their mom, and I think so too... honestly, they see me more than what they see her... but of course, when I go back home they'll forget me... :/

I imagine myself in some years, with MY OWN babies, and I picture myself doing the same things I do now with Lola and Jake. feeding them, bathing them, changing their diapers, playing with them and being silly, singing to them, putting them to sleep... all that stuff. I think that aupairs (especially the ones with little babies, idk about the ones with older kids) really learn a lot about being a mother. it's like... we ARE being mothers, but we're not supposed to, yet... it's like, we're doing something that we were meant to do only when we got kids of our own...
but of course, WE chose to do this, no one forced us... and I'm not saying I don't like doing this, I really do, but after awhile it can be tiring...
that's why I love weekends, but I hate spending money. lol.
and I also love the evenings, when I can be in my room with my computer. I love those moments, because they're the only moments that truly belong to me. the moments when I'm free to do whatever I want, and when I don't have to worry about the babies crying. if I hear them cry, well... it's their parents turn to take care of them... lol.
don't get me wrong, I love to take care of them, but as I said, after 10 hours of doing that... of course I love my freedom ;)

another thing I love about this family...
2. their house: it's really beautiful! although the grandparents' house is even more beautiful and luxurious... but this house's backyard is THE BEST. it is SO big and SO beautiful! there's a jacuzzi, a pool, and even little fish! :) and there's a lot of room to sit around and have a good time with your friends and family... tables, chairs, etc, etc, etc... it's my dream backyard. lol.

oh, and Ken Sr. (the babies grandfather) is the one who built the house, the backyard and the pool! isn't that amazing?!? he also built his house, and many houses on this road... oh, and the road! :P that's why the road has his name on it! that's SO freakin cool! :P

anyway, when I see all the houses around here, they're SO big and beautiful, but that doesn't necessarily mean that the ones living on them are rich... that's how it is here, even if you're not rich, you can live in a mansion. lol. btw, they wouldn't consider this house a mansion... but for me it is! (:

oh, and the house in Rhode Island where my brother works/lives... that's DEFINITELY a mansion! it's soooooo fancy and luxurious!!! and HUGE!!!
anyway... I'd love to have a house like this one someday... I know it's gonna be freakin expensive, though... but, can't I dream?? :P

I imagine myself and my husband in a house like this, in the future... it's so cool to imagine, cuz in my imagination, I own the place, I am the boss, and I decorate it as I want... lol.

well... a couple of days ago I got a Vacation Planning DVD from Disney World, and I've been watching it... it's soooo cool! I always knew Disney World was wonderful, but I guess I never really saw a lot of it... and on this DVD, I saw pretty much everything! all the parks, the resorts, the people having fun, and sharing their experiences... and, I'm so happy I'm here, and I'm so happy I'm so close to it and that it's not so difficult to go there, but... I get sad because I'll probably have to go alone, and on the video I see all those happy families, all of them together, all of them having a great time... and I wish I could go with my whole family :/
it even brought tears to my eyes, because it's such a magical place... and of course you'd wanna share that moment with the ones you love... and of course it'd be a lot more fun with them... but what can I do... I'm thankful I'm here and I'm glad I have the possibility of going there... even if it's gonna be by myself... well, hopefully I'll find another aupair to go with me... it's just so difficult to find someone with the same interests and vacation dates! :/

speaking about vacations... I'm still trying to figure out where to go... and I REALLY have to stop spending money, cuz I REALLY need to save! omg... but it's so hard... whenever I go somewhere, I see something I like, and wanna buy it! lol... :S

oh, I also wanted to mention that I'd love to go to Disney with my own kids and my husband someday... I'm sure it'd be magical... and I'd have more money and we'd be able to stay in one of the resorts and spend more time and money there... hehehe :)

Lola and Jake are sleeping now and I came here and felt like writing this. hopefully when I'm back home and read this, it'll bring back good memories... :)

ahh... Sejal and Alice really want me to stay for longer... they say the babies are really attached to me, and that I'm really good with them... :)
but they have to understand that I also have a life back home, and that I left many people and things I want to continue... I miss my family SO much, and my country... but I reeeally don't wanna think about that right now... time will tell me what to do...
I just wanna thank God for letting me come here and for letting me have this amazing experience :)

PS: I went to Yale University on Sunday, with 4 German aupairs. Vanessa, Melina, Nicole and Stefanie. They're very nice and spoke English (almost) the whole time so I'd understand too :) Yale was pretty cool! although our tour guide (a Yale student) didn't know where Spain is! I thought that Yale students were among the smartest people on earth! He was asking us if there was anyone from another country, and when 2 guys said they were from Spain, the guide said "well, I'm not really too good at geography, but that must be pretty far..." o_0 what the heck?? seriously... Spain is a well-known country! omg... :S
anyway, now I just need to visit Harvard and Princeton... hehe xD

thanks for reading, to whoever is reading!

y tdv no puedo, pero no importa...

tantas cosas ya pasaron desde q llegué...

fines de semana en New Jersey con parte de mi familia y una gran colectividad de paraguayos, fines de semana aburrida en la casa (aunq no tantos), fines de semana en NYC, un fin de semana en Niagara Falls, el Empire State Building, el Central Park (parte), 5th Avenue, etc, etc, etc...

q es muy difícil hablar de cada uno de esos paseos en forma taan detallada... =/ pero no importa, lo importante es q por lo menos queden grabados acá esos momentos, para q yo recuerde q de verdad pasaron...

anteayer fui a la piscina pública de Manville con mi cuñada Mabel y mis dos sobrinitos hermosos... y dp al parque q está al lado... pasamos un buen momento....
ayer salí de la casa de mi hno, fui a la estación de tren de Somerville, tomé un tren para ir a Newark ($8.25), llegué ahí, compré un ticket de ida a Six Flags Great Adventure (12 dólares), compré algo de McDonald's, esperé, y fui a Six Flags! me senté al lado de un señor de color, muy amable...

llegué a Six Flags y no me podía comunicar con mis amigas aupairs (Donay de Sudáfrica; Melina, Vanessa y Nicole de Alemania)... entonces estaba un poco desesperada. pero de todas formas fui hacia la entrada, encontré el lugar de los lockers, y como tenía un montón de cosas, dejé algunas ahí... 11 dólares, por todo el día... me dieron un código q tenía q ingresar en la pantalla touchscreen cuando quería abrir el locker... super moderno, jiji...
dejé mis cosas y fui a pagar mi entrada, como me olvidé de la latita de coca cola (para tener 15 dólares off) tuve q pagar el precio entero, 49.99, creo... más taxes, quedó en 53 con algo... peero, el muchachito me preguntó si quería participar en la promoción del Big Six Pass, o sea q pago una entrada, pero puedo ir 6 veces... y le dije q sí, entonces dp me dieron un carnet para eso... con foto y todo =)

así q tengo q ir 5 veces más! xD jaja...

después por fin me llamaron y me dijeron q estaban cerca de la montaña rusa de Superman... entonces fui y les busqueee, y les encontré...
estaba Nicole y me dijo q ahora habían ido a The Great American Scream Machine, entonces yo fui tb, sóla... ella estaba cuidando las mochilas porq no quiso ir a esa montaña rusa...
entonces fui y me divertí mucho, aunq sola. jaja...


después salí, y por fin encontré a las demás, entonces fui con Donay a un juego q se llama Parachute Training Center... una cosa medio estúpida, en la q nos sentamos y nos subimos bieen arriba... lo bueno fue q tuvimos una linda vista de todo el parque...


después fuimos al Saw Mill Log Flume... una montaña rusa de agua... o sea q nos mojamos... pero no tanto... fue super divertido!



despuesss... fuimos a El Toro... q fue una de las peores montañas rusas... o mejor dicho, de las mejores! jajaja... no sé como es q tengo miedo pero igual entro... jajaja... me encantaaa!!!!!!



después fuimos a otra montañita rusa, Rolling Thunder, tb fue crazy, pero no taanto como El Toro... jajaja...

después fuimos a Bizarro! esa montaña rusa fue increiiibleee!!!! pero pensé q iba a ser peor... o sea, me pareció más scary El Toro...


después, de ahí fuimos a un juego más tranquilito... al Buccaneer, el famoso barco q va de un lado al otro... =P

despuesss... fuimos a una montañita rusa indoors, q pensamos q iba a ser tipo un tren fantasma o algo, pero nada q ver... lo único fue q era todo oscuro entonces no sabíamos a donde nos ibamos ni nada... jajaja... esa se llamaba Skull Mountain... =P



después quisimos ir a la montaña rusa de Batman, y formamos la fila... pero dp nos dimos cuenta q estabamos en la fila equivocada... jaja.. estavamos en la fila de Nitro... la montaña rusa maaaas increibleee! bueno, El Toro tb fue increíble, y Bizarro tb... pero creo q Nitro ganaaa!!! jajaja...
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entonces no fuimos a la montaña rusa de Batman... =/ y yo tpc fui a la de Superman... =/ porq cuando llegué ellas ya se habían ido a esa... pero bueno, otra vez será... y creo q no son taan buenas como El Toro y Nitro..... fuera de joda! amazing!!!


bueno, el último juego fue Congo Rapids! re divertido!!! acá les pongo una fotito para q sepan como fue...
después, como estabamos suuper mojadas, fuimos a un dryer... hay unas maquinitas donde uno se puede secar, cuesta 3 dolares... pagamos, pero igual seguimos mojadas... ja ja...

ya era tarde y teníamos q volver, entonces salimos... a las 9 de la noche más o menos... y llegamos casi a las 12!!! había muchísimo tráfico en algunas partes! especialmente para pasar de NJ a NY!!!
anyway... menos mal q está Ken para ir a esperarme... por lo menos q haga eso... ja...

en síntesis... pasé un día genial, aunq muy cansador por todas las filas y toda la espera para subir a los juegos... pero valió la pena! y tengo q hacer eso ahora q soy joven! cuando sea vieja ya no voy a poder! jajaja... ahh, y con mis hijos tb me voy a subir! =P

estoy feliz porq poco a poco estoy yendo a todos los lugares a los q quiero ir, pero tdv me faltan otros... en NYC...por ejemplo, la estatua de la Libertad, el Rockefeller Center (Top of the Rock y patinar), el Intrepid, el museo de cera, el museo de Ripley, NBC studios, más de Central Park, ir a lower Manhattan para ver el Brooklyn Bridge de cerca, ir a un show de Broadway, ir al Build a Bear workshop, q me dibujen los dibujantes q están en las calles de Manhattan, yyy... no me acuerdo qué más...
ndera... así parece q tdv no hice nada... pero sí hice!!! ya me fui al Empire State Building, al Central Park (aunq tdv no vi toodo... solo una partecita...) ya anduve en el petty cab (dos veces), ya fui a Times Square miles de veces, ya conozco de memooria el Grand Central, la Penn Station tb más o menos... ya no me voy a perder para llegar de un lugar a otro... jaja... ya me fui a un partido de baseball de los Yankees, y fui a ver los fuegos artificiales del 4 de julio...

ahh, me acordé de qué más me falta... me falta ir a los museos... al Museo de Historia Natural, al Museo Metropolitano, tb me gustaría entrar en la biblioteca pública de New York (sólo me saqué fotos afuera pero no entré), y tb me falta ir al Bronx Zoo... ahh, y a un acuario q está en Brooklyn... pero gracias a Dios q tengo muuucho tiempo tdv para hacer todo eso... gracias a Dios =)

bueno, espero q hayan disfrutado mi post! lo unico q sobra decir es q quiero volver a Six Flagssss muy prontooo!!!!!!!!! jajajaja.... peace out!