1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?

25... jeez.

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?

maaaaybe, but probably not.

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?

seeing my niece grow up.

4. Who was the last person you called?

don't remember. last person who called me, my mom.

5. Have you ever played a team sport?

yeah... unfortunately.

6. Who is the last person to text you?

my brother.

8. What were you doing at midnight last night?

sleeping.

9. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?

i was either helping my sister-in-law with my newborn niece or watching The O.C.

10. How many states have you visited?

Nine. 10 if you count Texas, but that was just the airport :P <-- what she said.

11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?

I dunno. traveling with my mom. or with that special 'someone' who doesn't exist.

12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?

right now socks cuz it's chilly.

13. When was the last time you cried?

Saturday I think.

14. What was the last thing you drank?

Pulp Pomelo.

15. Favorite ice cream?

cookies 'n cream! || other than that, vanilla...

18. What jelly do you put on your PBJ?

I hate peanut butter.

19. Do you like coffee?

Love it.

20. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?

actually I drink water bottles. and... probably anywhere from 7-10. || yeah, lots.

21. What do you drink in the morning?

latte.

22. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?

on the right side right now.

23. Do you know how to play poker?

nope.

24. Whats so good about Fridays?

that I don't have to work the next day. || ughh now i beg to differ, nothing's so good about Fridays cuz I HAVE to work the next day!

25. Any plans for this week?

yeah... go take an exam, dye my hair, that stuff.

26. Do you eat out or at home more often?

lately, at home.

27. Ever stolen a street sign?

Nope.

28. Do you keep a piggy bank?

no... I just save my money in my wallet xD

29. What kind of camera do you have?

Canon PowerShot SX120IS.

30. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?

both. oceans are more beautiful, but pools are nicer cuz there's no sand :P

31. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?

window, because I love to look down. lol. but I hate it when I need to go pee and the person next to me is sleeping :S

32. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?

not yet! but I will learn pretty soon! || not yet >_<

33. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?

nothing. I like SAVING it.

34. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?

earrings and two bracelets.

35. Do you speak any other language?

Spanish 100%, Portuguese... 90%? Guaraní 70%, Italian 30% LOL

36. Can you roll your tongue?

not really :/

37.Who is the funniest person you know?

right now... jeez... nobody. probably myself, i'm pretty funny when i want to. lol.

38. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

nope.

39. What is the main ring tone on your phone?

heart in a cage - the strokes and wonderin' - tobymac feat. matt thiessen

40. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?

yes, my mom kept pretty much everything :)

41. What is the colour of your bedroom walls?

Beige.

42. What are you doing tomorrow night?

taking a Research Methodology exam.

43. Are you nervous?

why would I?

Dark and twisty

algunas personas dicen ser mis amigas pero no lo siento así... y me duele mucho... con amigos así, para que quiero enemigos? estoy cansada de que nadie me aprecie como lo merezco :(

de que nadie vea lo que de verdad valgo, de que la gente se canse de luchar por mí.

tengo mucho que ofrecer y duele no tener a quien ofrecérselo. tengo mucho amor amontonado en mi corazón pero nadie a quien dárselo.

soy simpática y amable y aún así hay gente que es mala onda conmigo sin que yo haga nada para merecerlo. ya no sé que hacer. no puedo ser sociable y el centro de atención para ganar amigos porque no soy así. la gente me conoce y le caigo bien o no y viceversa, así pasa.

estoy cansada de la soledad :( estoy cansada de sentir que nada va a cambiar nunca.

soy callada y 'socially awkward' pero me decepciona que la gente se rinda tan fácilmente. que no sea de muchas palabras no significa que no sea de muchos pensamientos.

espero que alguien algún día se de cuenta de quien realmente soy.

Señor, te amo y sólo quiero ser feliz. sólo eso pido.

escuchando: Penholder - Flyleaf (con lágrimas de por medio)

I'm making up my mind

i'll never like you again

i'll never go after you again

i''ll learn not to want to

cuz you do not deserve it

and i'm one hell of a girl.

too bad you couldn't see it.

your loss, not mine (:

~the end~

what can i do.

it's kinda weird cuz i enjoy it

and don't want it to go away

even if i don't get anything from it

it's as if i'm sure i will get something eventually

i don't know where that faith comes from

a hope that tells me everything will be alright

i know i probably shouldn't feel this way

i should be more realistic

but i can't, sorry, i can't!

just let me be. and time will tell us who was right.

viste cuando sabés de la existencia de una persona [que pensás que es] ideal para vos?

pero no es nada tuyo, ni sabés si alguna vez lo será.

de todas formas es difícil olvidar la existencia de esa persona.

no encontrás de esos todos los días por la calle.

y mantenés viva una esperanza que no sabés si vale la pena, pero ahí sigue.

ah no, yo tampoco, nunca me pasó :B

I don't know what to do about you
I'm not quite sure what to make of you
One day I'll decide to leave it alone
Then when I see you again
All I want to do
Is call you my own, call you my own

Maybe it's just the change in weather
The sweet appearance of the spring
It's been a while since I felt the warmth of a kiss
Is all that I'm feeling for you
Nothing more than the things that I miss?

It could be
Something or nothing
It could be
Something or nothing

It's been a while since I've needed someone to love
It's been a while since I've needed anyone.

----

great song by Caryl Sumner! escúchenla acá: http://www.soundclick.com/bands/page_songInfo.cfm?bandID=226171&songID=3531519&showPlayer=true

resulta que lo que pasa es lo siguiente... me preocupo demasiado por algo que no me debería preocupar, no de la forma que me preocupa, en todo caso... conozco gente más joven que yo que ya se casó, o ya piensa en casarse... y yo, en que pienso? en que alguna vez alguien que valga la pena se digne a aparecer en mi vida. creo que tal vez le estuve dando el enfoque equivocado a esto, todo este tiempo... no poner toda la responsabilidad en el hombre, yo también tengo que poner de mi parte. no voy a hablar de todo que significa 'poner de mi parte', pero engloba muchísimas cosas. y bueno, con eso me despido, pensaba escribir algo un poco más autocompasivo pero de repente pensé que no, mejor me guardo esos pensamientos para mí :)

wanting to have someone is not a sign of being needy. it's just being human.

and i am being so human right now... and i want you yet i don't know if you want me.

i hate these stupid love games. can't guys just be straightforward and say what they want/feel? and not confuse us so much? and if they don't want anything can they just not do things that might make us think otherwise? for God's sake. that's how i'm going to bed tonight >_<